A blinking cursor at the end of empty line might be one of the most paralysing views for many people. The most regular rhythm of pure nothing, mind getting emptier with every concurrent blink. You have the idea but the first step in bringing it to life is somehow the hardest, the scariest. Is it because the scene hasn’t been set yet? There is nothing to latch onto yet, you have to draw the first line, type the first word, make the first move, create something out of nothing.
If you finally start, it’ll get easier but that first step will still be hard again the next time. I admire greatly people who can just start doing the thing. I rather think of doing something and write it down on the list to do later. I will do this one day, when the time is right, when I feel like doing that, when the mood is right, when my mental state is just the right way. The more I think about that, the more I think that is just an excuse. I would go even further, I know it’s an excuse. I’m just scared of going on the journey of actually doing a thing.
I know it won’t be completely bad. There might be failures on the way and I might struggle or get annoyed but the effort I will put into a thing won’t be completely wasted on that. I will experience something new, learn something I hadn’t know before and I will probably enjoy myself and still I just will always find myself apprehensive of the first step. This might be the one most popular reason I procrastinate things and I hate it. I should just start. I will start. I am starting.